I thought remission would feel like getting my life back. Instead, I quit my job and realised that life after cancer is not always about going back - sometimes it is about making a choice that finally feels like yours.

I thought I missed Berlin. What I was actually feeling was grief. After cancer, nostalgia hits differently.

After 7 months of treatment, I reached complete response. But with BRCA1, surgical menopause, and more decisions ahead, healing is far from over.

A raw and honest reflection on the emotional in-between after chemo and before surgery. For anyone feeling lost in the quiet space between.

Explore my journey from blame to healing, inspired by Gabor Maté’s work. Mind-body patterns, compassion, and self-accountability.